Waiting

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Waiting

I can’t remember what was the trigger
That forced my lungs to wheeze
Pushed me into a bent over figure
As I continued to cough, splutter and sneeze.

When I straightened and looked down
The tissue was speckled with blood
My brow turned to a frown
My eyes began to flood.

Where had this come from?
Why hadn’t I noticed before?
Had it been going on for long?
The answers to these questions – unsure.

I saw all the specialists
Consulted with the best
They assured me it wouldn’t be missed
But I had to take the test.

I begged and I reasoned
Surely this couldn’t be true?
There had to be an explanation
This life couldn’t be through.

The minutes, hours and days ticked by
I struggled every second – ropes around my chest
I thought I was going to die
Couldn’t imagine what came next.

My mind was spinning, I couldn’t focus
Filled with thoughts of losing it all
Everything changed with little notice
Sitting in silence, waiting for the hammer to fall.

Submeg

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